Thoughts

Over the past couple of weeks I have had a lot of things that I want to write about on my blog, I just haven't had the time to write them all out. This week has been a very stressful week for me, a lot has been going on. Work is absolutely crazy, finances are tight at home, Brendan has been a little extra fussy (teething??) and I just can't seem to get ahead. I also have been struggling with where we are in our lives right now. Scott and I both have good jobs that we love and yet we can't seem to change our current position, I am a little jealous of those who can right now. Please don't get me wrong, I am so happy for my friends and their life changes, just feeling a little down currently.

All this to say, the other night Brendan fell asleep in my arms while we were home alone. I laid him down on the floor in the living room and just stared at him. He was so peaceful, so innocent and so content. It was a reminder to myself of how I should be. Just looking at that little person sleeping beside me was a reminder of hope for tomorrow and insurance that it would all be okay. Brendan has no worries, he knows that when he is hungry he will be fed, when he is cold he will be warmed and when he is upset he will be comforted. Why am I worried? I know that when I cry, my heavenly father will comfort me, we will have food on the table and a warm place to sleep.

As I stare at those tiny hands, the tiny noes, and his little ear, I know that God created this little being. I am reminded that God does have a plan for us, and if part of his plan is for us to stay in our little apartment, we will make the most of it. We have a nice apartment, a wonderful loving family and the joy of our life with us. What more could we want? I need to be Peaceful, innocent and content, just like my baby.